No end!!

Today is my special day. I am confused what to wear, is that blue chudi good yeah, Kris loves that

I left my hair free and I took my favorite matching studs, bracelet.

After my parents saw me they looked shocked because they never saw me like this before

I m so nervous today because I am going to meet my special person and this is my special day

God I am so excited I checked again and again in mirror to reassure I m ok to look

I m more than ok, I m looking beautiful in this blue dress and high heels

I took one auto and went to park where that person is waiting…

     

8 years back

 My father is an honest police man because of his honesty; he is being promoted and transferred to theni. We went to theni police quarters. First day, we went to grocery bought things and it takes two days to settle. I bought bunch of rose plants planted in front of our home. My daddy found best school for me.

Today is my first day of my school. I waited for my school bus that is the day; I met my Krishna for the first time. He is tall, fair and his eyes are sharp. When I found his eyes found mine, I looked down.

He walked towards me, and I turned back. He came and cleared his throat and asked” hey, what is your name? “

By hiding my smile, I told keerthi and he told I m Krishna studying 9 th oh my god he is my class mate.

I m good in studies and I m the topper of my class but Krishna is very bad in studies his maximum mark is 32 in English

But he never felt bad, his interest is in football messi is his favorite. Book full of photos of him

I started liking him from the day I saw him. I don’t know whether he likes me or not actually I don’t want to know him. Because my father is so strict and he will kill him if he knows that

And today I saw Krishna is standing in bus stop. I smiled at him wow he looks stunning and waited for the bus

He cleared his throat “keethu”; I love if he calls me keethu,

I want to tell you something, he told

Yes Kris, I replied

You know what day is today, he asked

February 14, I answered

Means?  He asked

Hmm valentine’s day, I smiled

Exactly, he grinned

So? I asked

I love you, he told

To my shock… excuse me, I smirked

By maintaining his cool attitude, u looked beautiful even when you are smirking me, he laughed

Kris… Krishna u r my best friend tats al, I lied

I know I love him but more than I am scared of my father. I can’t tell him I love him.

It’s been a week I didn’t talk to him. He came to me “y r u not talking to me”, he asked

I don’t know what to reply him

I blinked

Ok I love you, I will wait for you dear, but please talk to me now, he told

Please change your mind Krishna, I told

I love you keethu, he told again

Then we boarded into the school bus

Then, we started talking like before, but I never tell him that I love him.

And he also stopped asking me whether I love him or not

But he never stopped his love on me. In fact it growing every day

I helped him study and somehow he managed to got pass mark in 10 th

And we again joined same school and every Valentine’s Day he gave me gifts and waiting for my answer

Even now I didn’t find courage to tell him, this person I love him more than anyone. He is the only person I loved. Loved from the day I saw, his sharp eyes, his beautiful smile, and his charm god how can I be without him.

Days went we both went to important phase of our life. +2 our love never affect our studies, in fact he studied better than before and finally we completed our exams

He got decent percentage of 85 and I got 97

Until now, all my morning starts with saying “hello” to him and my night ends with “good night keethu, I love you” text from him

And then I realized I have to leave my home, my parents, my lovable Kris to attend my college. God, I have to leave my city and have to stay in hostel

I can’t be apart from Kris. He got college in our hometown, so he is not going anywhere.

How could I tell him I am going?

Kris, I am going, I told

I know, he told

I try to come often, I consoled

Its ok, he told

Oh, so you won’t miss me, I smirked

He didn’t say anything and gave me a box wrapped with gift cover

Exactly how many gifts will he give!!

What? , I asked

Open, he told

I hurriedly opened

Its Samsung galaxy mobile phone

I opened my mouth “why”, I asked

I know your father won’t buy a mobile phone, he smiled

No, I don’t want, I told

Please, he begged

No, I told

I will miss you, he begged

Ok, I smiled and kept in my bag

Thanks and love you keethu, he smiled

Ok am going, I waved and came

As he guessed my father didn’t buy me a mobile

I have your warden number, if any emergency call from that, he told

Kris is correct I laughed and I nod my head to my dad

I packed everything and started and saw Kris home while going but he is 

nowhere to see,

I want to see my angel at least once; I want to see his eyes.

In bus stand my father settled my things and told me "take care " he went

I found someone sitting beside me in bus

To my shock its Kris

God I missed you man, I want to hug him and tell him, I love you and I don’t want to go, but only tears came out

He found that and asked “homesick”.

No, I told

Then? , he asked

Nothing, I replied

He kept his hand above mine

Its ok, he told

I smiled

Are you coming with me, I asked

Yes offcourse, he grinned

No, I smirked

I coming for your safety, but u r smirking at me, he smiled

Ok, come, I told

I must, he grinned again

Will I ever get fed up of seeing his smile, I questioned myself

Bus started he never leave my hand and off course I don’t want him to leave.

Its 9.30 I opened box my mom gave me. I found 4 idly I gave him 2 and ate 2

And we ate cookies

Then I leaned over window and closed my eyes

My shoulder is free, you can use, he grinned

I leaned over his shoulder without uttering a single word

He didn’t expect this from me

He hide his smile and adjusted himself to made me feel comfort to sleep

Thanks, he told

No, thanks, I told

I feel heaven, I want to hug him but I can’t. I hate myself for being coward

He kissed my knuckles

I felt his warm lips but pretend like sleeping

Then today is my first day of college

Equal strength of boys and girls. No guys seems attractive no one can be as attractive as Kris

My phone is vibrating inside my bag

I found text “good morning angel” from Kris

Good mrn Kris and thanks for strday, I replied

It was me to thank you, he replied

And we continue our chat whole day and night he called me we talked for several hours

I didn’t miss him since I spend most my time talking with my dear as soon as I got few good friends and they found me that I am loving him

kavi is my best friend among all

Did he proposed you, she asked

Yes, I told

Your reply, she asked

Nothing, I smiled

Why, she widened her eyes

I don’t know, I replied

What? She asked

I am scared of my father, I told

So? She still widened her eyes

I can’t tell him I love him, I told by hiding my pain

Are u mad or something, she smirked

Yes, mad of Kris, I smiled

Not funny, she smirked even more

I m helpless, I told

Whether he knew that you love him, she asked

No, I told

Shit, she told

What should I do? , I asked

Marry a guy that your father find for you and forget Kris, she told

Marry other Guy.!! Excuse me? I was shocked

Then that will happen if you continue this, she told

No, I told

Show his photo, she asked

I showed my mobile because I kept his photo as wallpaper

Another thing will also happen, she told

What? I asked

Some gal will fall for him, he may love her, she told with sarcasm in her face

No, I shouted

Yes, better accept his love or forget him, she told and went

Tears burst from my eyes and I found 6 new messages and 7 missed calls from Kris

Oh god, I forgot my mobile was in silent and had a sincere chat with kavi

I opened one by one with tears in my eyes

1. Hey what sup? 2. There? Busy? 3. U ok? 4. Keethu reply me da, I m scared 5. If u didn’t reply I will come there to check you that u r ok. 6. I m in bus stand

Oh shit, I hurriedly reply him “sorry I slept”, I replied

I m ok don’t worry, I slept, I lied again

Within a second I got reply from him “thank god”

U slept?  R u not feeling well? he texted

No, just tired, I replied

Oh, then sleep dear, he texted

No, that’s fine talk, I replied

Then we talked until late night I slept by having my mobile

Days went like this. At the end of every day I m loving more than yesterday

I will go home only during diwali, pongal and semester holidays. Every day I will count days to meet him One day us usual he texted me “hey”

Hi Kris, I replied

Want to tell you one thing, he texted

Hmm, tell, I replied

Today one gal proposed me, he texted

I was shocked, like kavi told that day. I don’t know what to reply, tears burst 

and rolled down to my cheeks and one tiny drop fall on the mobile screen.

U there? , he texted again

I didn’t reply

What’s wrong? He texted again

And after a few seconds he called me

I pick up his call and hide my pain and said hello

What happened? , he asked

Nothing, I told

Tell me, he ordered

What did u reply to her? , I asked

I told her, I love keethu, he told

That’s all, I asked by hiding my smile

Hmm chapter close, he told

Ok, I giggled

So this is y you didn’t reply, he asked

No, I told

Really, he laughed

Yes, I told

Ok then text me properly, he told and hang up

Whenever I want to go home he will come to my university from there we both go home. He is so protective and that journey is my pleasant memory until our next meet

And finally placements came; Kris father is very rich so he set up business for him. And I sat for placements my father wants to get placed in particular company of package 14 lakhs

Even that company is my dream company, my dads told if u gets placed in that company, I will give you whatever u ask.

I thought of telling about Kris to my dad after I get selected into that company.

Kris supported me and encouraged me he even came to my college and made me good. With his support and love I cleared my interview and got selected

After knowing that I got selected my father was very happy and asked me what do u want baby?

With hesitation, dad I like Kris... I stopped

I didn’t hear anything from him. I mustered my courage and told him

Dad I like Kris and I wish to marry him, I told

He laughed

I m shocked. I never thought my father would laugh in this time

Dad? I asked

Kris dad already told all these things, we all waiting for your answer, he told

Krishna knew that? He asked

No, I smiled with tears in my eyes

Tell him I meant call him, he told

No dad I want to tell him on his birthday, I giggled

When is that? , he asked

This weekend, I replied

Come home, I will ask permission to your warden, he told

Thanks dad, I told

Then I was very happy that my father accepted and I thought of buying him gifts.

I don’t know what to gift for that guy who is having everything

I bought 21 gifts since this is his 21^st birthday each small small gifts which I 

searched for over 10 shops and packed everything with gift wrapper and finally I started to theni without telling him I am coming home.

My father picked me up from bus stand. After reaching home I texted him

I m in theni, I texted

What? He replied

My father came there suddenly so, sorry for not telling you, I texted

That’s ok, anyway I m happy you are here, he texted

Hmm, I replied

I need to buy dresses for my birthday, so going town, he texted

Ok, I replied

Can u come to terrace? I want to see your face, he texted

Hmm, in terrace, I replied

He waved me from the road and went

Wow he is so good, his smile is breath taking and tomorrow I m going to tell him how I felt for so many years

I m nervous excited and I don’t know how to tell him , I prepared so many times in front of mirror

Bought dress? I texted

No reply from him

Busy? I texted again

No reply from him

So I called him and seems his mobile is switched off

Why the hell he switched off? I questioned myself and slept for hours

When I woke my father sat beside me and looking his knotted fingers

He tugged my hair behind my ear and asked “u awake”, he asked

Yes dad, I smiled

But he is very upset and I found there is a tear in his cheeks

I crawled on bed and asked what’s wrong?

You must be strong, he told

Dad, what’s wrong? I asked

Krishna … he stopped

What happened to him, I panicked

Lorry hit him, he broke down

Dad... dad... nothing happened to him right? I asked

Come, let’s go to hospital, he told

I didn’t talk afterwards we both went to hospital

His mom broke down after seeing me, I want to be strong nothing will happened to Kris

I told myself hundred times I must be strong

And its 11 55 p.m already

My dad came and told its too late come I will drop you home

No dad, I told

Come baby, he told

I heard alarm in hospital wall clock

Dad, today Kris birthday, I want to wish him, I told

Kris parents broke down again after hearing me and told them nothing will happen to him, after got permission from doctor, I went to his room

His eyes closed, I kept my hand on his chest

Kris. I called

Happy birthday and I love you, I cried

I prepared so many times but never thought I would tell this way, I kissed his forehead and kept my head on his chest

My tears fall on him. I don’t want to move nursed woke me and told me to leave

I slept in lobby chair. Morning everyone rushed to Kris room, I found something odd and went to my father he hold my hands and told “everything will be alright”

I nod my head

Few hours later, doctor came out

I m sorry, he told

His brain is dead, and if u wish you can make your son live in someone’s body, he told

His parents broke down and I fell down fainted. When I opened my eyes I found myself lying in my home

I just recollected what doctor told us before. And ran to downstairs and I found my dad lying in the sofa, mom s crying beside him.

Where is Kris? I asked

why am I here? I blinked

Baby you, should be strong, my mom told

Kris died and his organs are transplanted, dad told

What? Dad, tell me this is a dream, I begged

Dear, you must be strong, my mom told again

No, Kris can’t do this to me, I want to give my gift, and I want to tell him that I love him, I cried

My dad pat my shoulders and allowed me to cry until I could

It’s been a week, and I found myself very week and my parents are worried about me

I shrug on my overcoat and I take a deep breath, but that doesn’t fill the void in my heart, after Kris left me

I sit and stare blankly at the brick wall. I am numb. I feel nothing but the pain, 

his last look, his hair, his eyes, is killing me. I am finding it difficult to eat.

If I talk to Mom, I know I will break even further and I have nothing left to break. 
Torturous memories flash through my mind, bus journey, kissing my knuckles, his care, his love, his humor, I miss him, and I felt like an eternity.

And when I sat on sofa with swollen eyes staring at Kris photo, Kris parents came to my home

His mom hugged me tighter and I broke again

U lose weight dear, Kris mom told

Kris wants you to be happy always, she added

Come I want you to show you something, his father dragged me to his home

He opened Kris room, I never saw his room before

After saw that room, I cried harder than before, I found my photos hanging on 

the walls of his room

More than 10 photos, from 9^th standard, his father came towards me and pressed my shoulder

Don’t cry, Kris don’t like if u cry, he will feel bad, he told?

Kris is still in this world, she told

I blinked at her

Yes dear, his heart is transplanted to some person and that person is alive

Our Kris is living somewhere so don’t cry dear she told with tears swims in her 

eyes.

I realized Kris heart is living somewhere and want to let his heart knows that I love him

I ran from Kris home and took one bus and went to Hospital where he was admitted

I got address and phone number of the person who got transplantation surgery, he is in Coimbatore

I talked with the person father, I told him about my relationship with Kris and all, and he understands me

I am coming to the next week for my relative’s marriage, he told

Ok then, can I come to meet u? I asked

Yeah sure, he assured

And today is the day; I am going to meet that special person, I am going to let Kris heart to know that I love him. I am excited, nervous and I waited in the park to see him

I remembered nurse told his name is sanjay and I peeked through my bag, I took all gifts which I bought for Kris birthday to give him

I heard one voice saying, “Sanjay, careful don’t run”

I turned to the side where I heard voice

Are you Keerthi? One 35 years old man asked me

Yes and you sanjay? I asked

No, I am not, he laughed

Sanjay? I asked

He showed his index finger to one small guy. He is Mr. Sanjay, he told.

Sanjay is 6 years old, sharp eyes, bright smile similar to my Kris, I ran towards Sanjay and hugged him tighter and kissed him

I broke down in front of that cute little guy, in front of my Kris heart.

His little fingers wiped out my tears and his smile filled the entire void in my heart

I spent an hour playing with him, with my Kris and gave all 21 gifts to him

And it’s been a year, I often visit Sanjay and that made me feel better and every year he visits Theni or we all go Coimbatore.

Even though Kris body left this world, his heart is living somewhere and loving 

me, I could live with the memories he left to me.

Love has no ends!!!

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