Isn’t innocent a bad thing?!!!!! Why am asking this because am one of those creatures
before some years….. Hmmm… I could describe myself as “ Black curly hair
,always messy hair, and medium height, little clumsy, done awkward things
without skill, falling down often and hurting myself…. I think I would be the
person known to everyone in school, because of my attitude…
Off course am going to share my school life…. Wait.., not
about my studies but “my love” why could I named that as “Innocent love” ??
Ya that suits to that… I would nice to everyone , smiles a
lot ,but sometimes be over reacting but never talk dirty or curse others , admired
to school seniors.. Everyday when I entered school, I was crazy playing with my
school friend his name Mr.blacky being
black I named that cute dog as Mr.Blacky.
I cried a lot when it
was shot by a person . Next I loved most in my school is my school senior . He
always said that I was cute and innocent puppy for him… I liked him a lot ,
my friends were crazy about him. But I am
the person he loved so, I was disliked by some girls. Whenever I fell down, he
felt sad for me, he comfort me and I cared him a lot asking stuffs like had dinner? What doing? How are you?
Even though, he was bored with that, he keeps on answering
for those… I never stop while speaking sometimes , he didn’t understand what
languages I am speaking… yes, my pronunciation is too bad instead of
pronouncing the word I enunciated them..,
I ruined many occasion of him, but I never sorry for him ,because of my lack of
knowledge!!!
At first, my childishness and innocence made him to like me
,but after some times that let him to
struggle he came to know what life is? How cruel it was? When he left the
school he left all his feelings of mine also he forgets his innocent puppy!!!
Without knowing that , I keep on caring and loving him he
started ignoring me , he didn’t pick my calls because, he found new girl in his
college . When I came to knew that the explanation, he gave me is so weird!!!!
“I WANT A GIRL
TO LOVE
AND SHARE MY
LIFE
NOT A CHILD TO
PLAYING
AND KIDDING
AROUND ME….”
Isn’t innocent a bad thing???
Being innocent is my fault??
With that pain, I came to know the world, I can’t bear that
pain but even though, I didn’t get angry on him. Because his feelings were true,
when he was with me.. I started noticing other girls their behavior and how to
become more mature ,I really want to change my attitude.. I digger a grave and
I buried my attitude, my innocence , and my originality, everything into that..
I thought I born again.. But everyone who loved me, wants my
old me but I don’t want that…
Now situation worse for him ,so many misunderstanding
between him and his new lover.. finally they did break up.. He asked me to start
again...if I were an old innocent and childish puppy, I probably accept him...but
now , I am not like before, I am bit mature, knowing well about people, I even
get angry on people.. Apart from custard apple I hate many things, I even curse
people !!!
Why do I accept him ?? I reject him by saying
“I WANT A BOY WHO LOVE
MY ORGINALITY NOT
MY FAKE ATTITUDE”
If I accept him, I never being true self to him ,I keep
acting for his sake… I don’t want that!!!
I am having doubt now…
Isn’t innocence that much bad thing????
Whether I have to
maintain this fake attitude for rest of my life??
